Additional "but needed" new trouble.

Greetings and May peace be upon you.

Today marks a new chapter of my life. I eventually decided to take a part time job at my ex-supervisor's (Msc.) office.

Despite the fact of my research is not settled yet and vague status of my tutorship, I made this bold move based on 3 reasons:

1. Software's skill improvement: The job needs me to process (digitize) a few aerial photographs using ArcGis.   Therefore, it will be a good practice for me, especially in my system's development phase, later in chapter5. 
    
2. "Rebonding" with my ex-supervisor, Dr. L: During my master study, he was the 1 person who helps me so much and believes in me when everyone thought I'll never graduated (yes,I'd graduated in my 4th year). Then when i'm pursuing my PhD, he'd agreed to be my supervisor again despite all the problem I caused.  However, I need to change my PhD supervisor (to my current supervisor, Dr. J) because my head of department told to. He said I will be more supervised if I'm doing my thesis with him (as I am the staff so, I should follow the order)..pffft! but...need to share the story of Dr.J in whole new post, so, maybe later.. As I speak about Dr. L, he still willing to help me with my research, even let me join his group research. Thus, I hope this job will give me an opportunity to make up things, when i had to change him to Dr. J (cos I know, deep down I'd blamed myself when I agreed to it)
   
   
3. Extra Money: Apparently, my family and I are starting to live in our new home. And yes, it costs us more expenses than we'd expected. Hence, hopefully the earning from this job, will lighten the burden.

So, that's it!

I really hope this new trouble I've created will not affecting my prior matters. Just hoping, it will makes me more focused to my study and my family. so....we'll see..

ha..ha..and ha..

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Numb and Hearbroken Event

Greetings and May peace be upon you.

Last 3months, I got a very shocking-heartbreaking news.

It's when I learned that my current status as a tutor at this U will be terminated as I already breach my contract of maximum 6 years-study-leave-to-get-a-PhD. (Now i'm in my 3rd year of PhD)

I'm so heartbroken..

NUMB..

Can't think straight..

Keeps on practising, how to burst the news to my spouse. 

and my mother..

and my father..

 and to all.

I kept the news almost 2weeks to myself. Myself! and life felt so distress when you kept something so big from your other half. 

Because my guts said, he will be mad at me! Dissappointed!

If I'm terminated from my job now, our whole life-plan will be changed. It has to be change..How can I pay my monthly mortgage, debt etc..etc..
our monthly surviving will be affected by this. We can't rely on my husband's income solely..GOSH!

When comes to discuss with the faculty's HR person, she willing to do her best to help me. (Thank God for sending this nice lady) As I'm still under the study leave granted from MOHE (ministry of higher education), we'll fight for an extension of my study leave. So, now i'm still waiting for the result from U's higher-rank-aka-bigboss! 

(May God ease everything for me)

For my other half, I'm sorry for keeping this news from you. It turns out, his reaction was 100% oppositely contrast from my poisoning guts. Shame on me! shouldn't kept anything from him again.

He's so calm and understanding. Despite of my problem with my supervisor (that's a whole different story), he asked me to be more focused and hardworking to complete my theses. (Oh! I wish it that simple) 

Nevertheless, this event such a turning-point for me. My motivation gone with the wind..I lost more focus than when the time I had morning sickness. My brain, my mind can work as ussual. Oh. my! I'm so frightening how the result will turns out. Don't even know when the result will be out. So, we will see...

We'll see....

We'll see...

Ha.. Ha.. and Ha..

Breaking The "first" Ice

Greetings and May peace be upon you.

To break the ice; 

just need a platform to express my UNTOLD infamous story of life as 

a PhD candidate who is a very much juggling 

to survive, being 

a lovely wife and responsible mother.

Ha..ha..and ha..